Estoy comenzando a creer,

Mas de lo que había pensado seré.

Hoy entendí parte de mi propósito de vivir,

Hoy comprendí la libertad del Dios viviente.

"Abre tu boca por el mudo

en el juicio de todos los desvalidos"

"Abre tu boca, juzga con justicia,

y defiende la causa del pobre y menesteroso"

Pov 31:8-9

Cómo había obviado semejante vocación?

No es solo un sueño por cumplir,

Sino la responsabilidad de vivir.

No es deseo ni anhelo,

Es dolor pero con eterno reconocimiento.

En vocación comprendo

Cada quien con su ministerio,

A cada cual el Señor dá

Conforme a su amor y bondad.

"Porque si todos fueran un solo miembro,

donde estaría el cuerpo?" 1 Cor 12:19

No olvidando lo mas importante,

Que Dios es el amor grato

De cada vida atribuyendo

Misericordia y verdad.

"Tú oirás en los cielos su oración

y su súplica, y les harás justicia"

1Rey 8:45

Y sabiendo que Dios es justo y misericordioso,

Por que no acudir a Él siempre?

Por que desperdiciar el tiempo en el Hombre?

"Y vio Dios lo que hicieron, que se convirtieron

de su mal camino; y se arrepintió del mal que había dicho

que les haría, y no lo hizo" Jonás 3:10

"Porque sabía yo que tú eres Dios clemente y piadoso,

tardo en enojarte, y de grande misericordia,

y que te arrepientes del mal"

Jonás 4:2

Y quien soy yo para aclarar lo que

No se puede esconder a los ojos?

"En el principio creó Dios los cielos y la tierra" Gen 1:1

"Mas al fin del tiempo yo Nabucodonosor alcé mis ojos al cielo, y mi sentido me fué vuelto; y bendije al Altísimo, y alabé y glorifiqué al que vive para siempre; porque su señorío es sempiterno, y su reino por todas las edades.

Y todos los moradores de la tierra por nada son contados: y en el ejército del cielo, y en los habitantes de la tierra, hace según su voluntad: ni hay quien estorbe su mano, y le diga: ¿Qué haces?

En el mismo tiempo mi sentido me fué vuelto, y la majestad de mi reino, mi dignidad y mi grandeza volvieron á mí, y mis gobernadores y mis grandes me buscaron; y fuí restituído á mi reino, y mayor grandeza me fué añadida.

Ahora yo Nabucodonosor alabo, engrandezco y glorifico al Rey del cielo, porque todas sus obras son verdad, y sus caminos juicio; y humillar puede á los que andan con soberbia." Daniel 4:34-37  

Porque todo lo que existe aún en nuestras mente

Es para gloria de Él,

Será tu propio testimonio,

Al concretar que el es Dios.

"Todo lo que Jehová quiere, lo hace,

En los cielos y en la tierra,

En los mares y en todos los abismos"

Salmos 135: 6

No te alteres,

Su presciencia es...

"Si es posible, en cuanto dependa de vosotros, estad en paz con todos los hombres"

Rom 12: 18

Date la oportunidad...

"Antes bien como está escrito;

cosas que ojo no vio, ni oído oyó,

Ni han subido en corazón de hombre,

Son las que Dios ha preparado

Para los que le aman." 1 Cor 2:9

No olvides tu propósito,

Persevera y alcanza.

"El que da testimonio de estas cosas

dice: Ciertamente vengo en breve. Amén;

sí, ven, Señor Jesús." Apoc 22:20

07-31-2008

Lidia Avilés

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Some Arabic music joined me just now,
This moment I shared with you in the mind,
This moment at midnight
that I put your words in my skin,
Wasn't a dream,
Wasn't a wish,
Just enjoying the moment
that this music brought to me.

The mixture of your image,
That barely have it in mind,
The sweet touch that barely have in my arms,
The cute smile that I never forget,
You have.

The pleasure got me today,
Thinking of that man,
Thinking how would it be if I see him again?...
I'm afraid to fall for those cares,
My words aren't exactly what used to be.

My lips asked for your lips today,
I enjoyed you so good just now,
You felt so good...
You don't need to be here,
But you know you've been preparing this land,
Isn't love,
Isn't passion...
Its just this flame,
Is just a step to Hell.

Auto service never been so attracted to me,
Till you started to push me with beautiful lyrics,
In this poem I'm just letting you know that you were here tonight,
That you'll be here every time you want.
-Am I being unfaithful to the wrong person?

As we made so clear...
This isn't the right time,
And I'm sorry to express you,
That I don't think there will be one.

But at this moment I know
what I didn't know ten years ago,
So...who knows?
And plz, just HUSH! Lol

08-24-2008
Lidia Avilés

Leer Unfaithful to the wrong person en Escritos

Imperfectamente Perfecto

Pensé por un momento
Que éramos simplemente lo opuesto,
Pero comprendo hoy
Que es complemento.

Repetitivamente te confesé mi libertad,
Excesivamente confié en tu buena voluntad.

En tan pocos días de habernos separado,
Te he pasado pensando,
Te paso extrañando,
Te estoy anhelando.

Sin dolor ni sosiego,
Sin destrucción ni ansiedad,
Porque el amor edifica,
Y la verdad redarguye.

Sin preocupaciones del mañana,
Ni repercusiones del ayer,
Celebraciones del destino
Y modestia del saber.

Recuerdo en Ometepe cuando te confesé mi fantasía,
Tu rostro se iluminó de alegría,
Recuerdo que el Volcán Maderas aunque no está activo,
Pudo estallar si hubiese sentido en ese momento tu calor,
El lago Cocibolca se hubiese desbordado
Con cada mimo recetado.

Por un momento pretendí ignorar,
Por un momento quise llorar,
Por un momento pensé en huir,
Pero, era justo el momento
Y te recibí.

Ciertamente curaste mas que mis heridas,
Me diste tanta confianza,
Que sonreí al aceptar la esperanza.

Esos minutos y segundos inolvidables,
Hacen de vos inigualable,
Un dulce razonamiento inimitable,
Un hombre inexplicable.

Imperfectamente Perfecto,
Eso eres para mí,
Tantas veces quise conocer a alguien así de especial,
A alguien con quien realmente conversar,
A alguien a quien dar mas que un actuar,
A alguien con quien compartir la verdad.

No sabía como imaginarte,
No podría haber soñado algo tan puro,
Simplemente conocerte fue mi destino perfecto;
Eso que ya está escrito por Dios
quien es el que sabe hasta el mas íntimo pensamiento del corazón.
No tenía idea de cómo sería ese alguien,
Único, natural.
Vos!

Te extraño tanto,
Y entiendo te veré pronto,
Mi maravilloso 5 te puso en mis brazos,
Tus maravillosos besos,
Me pusieron en tus manos.

Mi maravishoso argentino soñado,
Ezequiel...
Gracias por esto besho que ha empezado.

Espero retengas con tu corazón que pase lo que pase,
Dios está buscando tu corazón mas que yo,
Así que deseo con la razón,
Que llegue el día donde te encuentres con él sin excepción.

Hasta la próxima!!

Con amor,
"Cachetitos" jaja TQMMMMMM x0x0

Posdata. No hace falta decir que te saqué de una telenovela escrita por mi para mi 

Agosto 18, 2008.
Lidia Avilés

Leer Imperfectamente Perfecto en Escritos

I have this friend somewhere
that push me to be a better person,
He doesn't notice how helpful he is,
I feel I'm exercising my mind every time I talk to him,
Even though I laugh and laugh every time he jokes.

His name is baby nuts,
Cause he is so funny at the same time that serious.
You never know when he is having fun
or giving you more.
I'm pretty sure I'll see him someday,
But for now,
I feel that distance is ok. Lol

Oh man,
You definitively became such a great friend,
I tell you my little stories,
Without hesitating,
And trust.

I can't tell you more than I should,
Cause our friendship is on the hills.
I assure you You'll have me forever
through the friendship you started,
I assure you oh baby,
I'm a constructive good habit 

Well my sweetie, honey, baby nuts...
I'll see you at msn,
I'll see some day,
Thanks for that love,
And much more...
Thanks for all that knowledge you share,
God knows how amazing you in my life
You have became!

08-23-2008
Lidia Avilés

Leer Baby nuts Ajam en Escritos

A personal poem is amazing to get,
A real feelings is weird to have,
A real person is difficult to love,
A real life is hard to find.

And here I am,
Telling you that I'm not in love as I thought,
Confessing that it was just the moment,
At the time that began;
Running away is how I am,
Running away is my natural balance.

After so long,
I finally got my throne.
After that much,
I finally feel that I'm touching the sky.

This is what I am;
Unattainable most of the time,
Modest ...barely,
I can tell I'm a good friend,
I can tell I'm a good daughter,
I can tell I'm a good sister,
I'm a good worker,
I'm not modest,
You can tell....
But I admit that I'm not a good girlfriend,
I'm not sure if I'll be a good wife.
I'm so afraid thinking how bad I can be!

So, you think I'm a good lover...
And I could be agree,
But a lover gives minutes and hours,
Don't give years or ages.

How is that I became that cruel?
Do you see me that bad?
Did you notice this before?
Is it my faith?
Is it my path?

Help!
Help...
God is here,
Is there...
Always have.

08-23-2008
Lidia Avilés

Leer Fake me en Escritos

In a lonely night when the writer express
How shitty life became after a huge game,
It always happens after de glory,
The sadness come and joy goes.

I'm remembering those days of glory
To tell my self those will be back and better.
Where is my love?
How is that I spread the voice of ecstasies?

I found out that non of the men I love,
Love me at all.
How is that when they feel to loose they retain me,
But when they have me,
They throw me away with sign language!

The man I love the most is a boy still,
He is 15 years old,
And no matter what I do to him,
He till thinks I'm no worth it as a sister.

The other man I love the most,
I know him since I was born,
He had cried when I've left before so many times,
He thinks always I'm not at his side,
Even I try to prove him that I'm not against him ever.
He doesn't understand that As I love his ex wife I love him too.
But till, he never feels proud of his only daughter.

The next man I love the most,
Seems so similar to the last two.
I loved him before I met him,
But he cant understand it.
I survived a time because God sent him to rescue me,
And....he prefers to stay away.
I love him with all my heart,
But I have to deal with it....

"no men who I love the most, loves me back"

God pays better when this happens, but....
For now, I'm expressing that I wish to feel a little love from them...

Father, didn't notice me when I saved your ass from prison giving you my friendship?
Brother, didn't notice me when I intervened with your principal so you could pass the year and stay in school?
Sweetheart, didn't notice me when I stayed at home when your knee got hurt,
So you could have someone to talk with?

How's that nobody understand what they have when they have it, till they loose it?

I'll never go away,
but at a moment like this,
I wish to disappear,
As you three did.

Sweetheart, I understand that distance is important,
But I understand too, that I cant ask you to be better.

Father, I understand that I need to seed first so I can receive,
But I understand too, that I cant ask you to seed before I do.

Brother, I understand that one self is first,
But I understand too, that love is living for the others.

My men, I love you three....
But somehow you look the same for me,
You behave the same,
And act the same.

I guess Its not all about me,
So simple as living for live.
I can tell is all my fault,
But I'll never go.
As you have done.

Lidia Aviles
August 7, 2008

Leer My three men en Escritos

There was a lonely night in which Madison was waiting for the typical response of Adrian at myspace, where they used to have their "maybe love" long distance relationship. This day was going to be more than special. Even she was heart broken cause Adrian never made the real move, she was still deep in love and with so much hope, than some day , he was going to show up at her door and seal the love. While she was waiting for him to reply, she checked her e-mail every minute, every second if it was possible. Somehow she got so disappointed when she reads that the Sender of the new message wasn't Adrian. A new message from Brad?
-who is Brad? - man, I'll read it later. What happened if the mail box gets full? Should I erase it and that's it? ... ok, ok... Adrian is taking a long time to reply.... Lets read Brad's message.

Message said:

"Dear Kassandra, I'm traveling with one of my best friends from Mexico to Panama, some part of my trip I'm planning to stay a couple of days in Nicaragua. Is there a chance I could see you when I get there?

You can checked my profile and look the 3rd friend in my top, his name is Jack.

XOXO Brad"

So, Madison checked at Brad's profile and thought he was a model, what else can he be, with the bunch of digitalized pictures. Too bad, he was a model. At the moment she thought they needed some local help, and was ok to help them out.

-Another message from Brad? And said: " I'm sorry I called you Kassandra, I apologize"
XOXO Brad.

Madison reply with not exclusion for the local help thinking and said:
-Sure guys, It'll be nice to see you when you get in town. And when are you coming?

Brad said: - We'll arrive proximally in a couple of weeks. We are at the border from Mexico and Guatemala.

p.s. Do you have hotmail messenger?

Madison gave him her email address as he asked. And they both started the session at msn.

She felt quite overwhelmed by the situation cause this guy seems to be desperate or maybe just boring.

He started flirty at her while Madison was trying to get in a conversation to understand what was going on cause she was happy at the same time talking with an stranger. Madison noticed he felt so secure about his physical appearance, but she didn't like him that much even in web cam. Even she was having a great and funny talk.
-What a guy! (Madison thinks)

-Brad: -do you have any boyfriend in town?
-Madison: -No, Im in love with this guy who lives in MA
-Brad: what about a guy who lives in Pr?

Brad has the best sense of humor Madison could ever experienced. He made her smile the entire hour they were chatting on a web cam session. And the point was that they didn't even met before.

-Brad: I'm arriving the first week of June I think. You are gonna love me when you get to see me. I can tell
-Madison: too bad you are a model, I usually run away from models, sorry.
-Brad: are you gonna run away from me cause Im a model? Some of us aren't that bad if you get to know us.
-Madison: we'll see.
-Brad: is there something fun to do in Nicaragua?
-Madison: no, but all gets happy with a couple of drinks ;)
-Brad: I don't drink, do you?
-Madison: That's so nice to hear man. I've been trying to quit cause I had this bad experience last month in my b-day. So...
-Brad: Drinking is bad for your health, you definitively need to quit girl. I stopped all of it at the same time like a year and a have ago. Im in my idea of a healthy life all a way. I don't like to work, so I want to make money and travel without having to work. My healthy life is helping me for that dream ;)
-Madison: wow, can I go with you?
-Brad: where?
-Madison: to make money, travel and be happy?

They both laugh of the dream as it never gonna happen. They were enjoying the little moments they just shared.

-Brad: I have to go, cause the guy in charge of the cyber café is giving me a bad look, I think they are closing already, its kind of late. What time is there?
-Madison: 11 pm , there?
-Brad: about the same time. Hope to talk to you one of this days girl. Good night.
-Madison: who is gonna pick you up at the bus station?
-Brad: you will lol.
-Madison: I don't mind, but give me the time you are getting here when you get to know ok.
-Brad: ok, and how Im gonna reach you when I get in town?
-Madison: I'll send you my phone number to your myspace ok.
-Brad: ok, thank you. See you in a couple of weeks then. Bye
-Madison: bye

A new story just started tonight? What is going on?

Madison had this pray after the disaster of her b-day like a week ago and said to God:
"Oh Lord, you know I behaved really bad all this year, and I cant take it no more. I feel frustrated cause of the bed I ended up to in my b-day wasn't exactly what I planned and I know it's all my fault. I don't want this to happen ever again. Oh Lord, I have a request for you...please let me know the man you have prepare for me if the case is that I haven't met him yet which is what I prefer... I know I asked you God to know him when I get 22, but please give me a preview of my love life as you did the last January about my professional career when the president took office. God, just let me know him and see him... I don't mind if you take him away while the right moment comes and give him back to me later....I also want him to be a good influence and someone who will love you more than he gets to love me"

Madison forgot about this pray and everything else till she spoke with this stranger. She started thinking about the pray...and at the same time didn't think it was possible that way. Anyway she just avoid the idea in her mind.

June came and she remembered about Brad, that he told her that he was coming on the first week. So, she wrote to him at the msn, thinking that he will read it when he gets online.

And he got it, he told her that they were hitting Managua soon.

Madison at that moment was waiting to host a Couch surfer girl called Ana. She was the typical cultural women who likes elegant and professional dancing and also languages. Ana was on the way to Argentina, trying www.couchsurfing.com that became very popular for traveling. Madison went out with her friends as she used to. She went out for clubbing in that week on Wednesday, Thursday and Friday night. On Friday she barley slept cause the party ended up at 6:00 am and at 9:00 am she was join one of her best friends to the beauty salon ... when Madison's buddy and her were waiting for the other friend to finish the beauty treatment, Madison got a call from Ana saying that she was at the bus station already. Nate, her buddy went with her to pick up Ana and took her at the beauty salon to wait for the other friend to finish.

Finally the other friend was ready and everyone could leave. Madison took Ana to her house and when She got online, Brad sent her a message saying that they were at the hotel already. Apparently they came an hour later than Ana did.
Brad started asking if they were gonna go out and what plans they had that night. Madison told him she was gonna pick them up to go for clubbing or something. Brad asked for the dress close to be sure about it. They set up the hour at 9:00 pm.

Ana and Madison got ready...but somehow Madison felt soooo tired and didn't want to go out, but she did cause she didn't want to disappoint Ana who was new in town.

They drove down to the Hotel that was so far away from Madison's house and Party places. Finally got at the Hotel, and Madison went out of the car and ask for the guys at the reception, they told her that they were coming. Madison went out next to her car waiting for the guys. She was upset they were getting to long, but suddenly they finally appear. And there they were.

Madison thought: "Oh My GOD! What an angel you sent to me Lord! Is that Brad?? He definitively look better in person...man those pictures are horrible compare to this cutie!

-Madison: Hi, nice to meet you finally.
-Brad: This is my friend Jack.
-Madison: Ok guys, lest go....

While they were in the car, Madison could notice Brad's look up to her... using the mirror to see her eyes. Madison was thinking that he looked like those typical hearth breakers of Cali. While she was admiring his persistence look, she was running away from the idea of something else. what he was thinking? Why he kept talking at his friend while was looking at her? What kind of devil was it that look like an angel?

Madison thought: I've seen those eyes before, I've seen this guy somewhere, I think I've talked to him already.... Did I dream this? What was happening?

To be continued...........

*You can check this every week, for the new chapter*

Leer The preview about Love en Escritos

We trade the life,
We trade some habits,
We trade the health,
We trade the road.

Is it my fault that you got contaminated?
Is it my fault that your first vice of all
made you loved me once and took all the bad from me?
Is it my fault that I took your strength and use it for me?
Is it my fault that I love you so much that I'm trying to get you back in that road I found you?
Is it my fault that I made the worst mistake ever when
I changed my faith for a second of carnal glory?

I know you think that you don't need any help,
I know you think that all is your decision,
I know you think that this is just a chosen life,
I know that you think this is just my stubborn reaction.

Why ...don't you search deep inside?
Why ...don't you remember your sober thoughts?
Why... didn't you believe in this love before?
Why...don't you see you fell for a trick of Hell?

I don't see what your doing,
I don't think you are doing wrong,
I don't believe that your soul got lost,
But I know you fell for those.

I'm in a pure pain thinking of your heart,
I'm in a pure pain knowing that I knew about this before,
I'm in a pure pain praying for you to come back,
Come back to your own path,
Come back to the rich person God was preparing,
Come back to those perspectives you spoke on Sundays,
Tuesdays and Thursdays after church.
I need to apologized that I wasted our 8 months webcam sessions
Talking about our distance relationship,
Instead of giving you the signs to follow the real light.

You think our differences made me step back?
You think our distance made me loose hope?
You think what you want,
But be sure that what you want is not your choice anymore.
You gave the power to your animal instinct,
You gave your road for a couple of nights.

I heard you when you explained to me that a Vice needs
to be substituted for another vice;
I changed my alcohol for your water,
I changed the boiling boys for your love,
I changed the bad meal for your diet,
I changed my cigarettes for your talks,
I changed my money entrance for your ideas.
I changed the slavery life for God's freedom.

There is not gray spots,
You need to Pick one,
White or black.
"Nobody can't ride your back unless it's bent."
Bent your back to Jesus,
Asking to rescue,
Still have time,
This is just a passing life,
The real life is the choice we take here,
Is a request,
It's a confirmation flight ticket!
Didn't approve your self for the God's road when you tried out?
Didn't understand that without him we live for nothing?
Please notice: "Faith is taking the first step even when you don't see the whole staircase."

I cant obligate you to do something,
But I could give you some ideas as you gave me more.
When I understand that I'm falling for something wrong,
I go to El Salvador where I find my grandma who gives me her knowledge about the spiritual life we need to have,
I run and ask her all I need,
I feel that there is every time like a refuge where I can put my self together,
But I keep on praying and ask God's mercy.

Read "Jonah 3:10" (bible)

When I say that I know what's gonna happen,
I only know it for the choice you take,
I only understand it when you pick black or white.
Pick white please!
I told you once about this "going to be"
And Please ask God what he wants with you!
Don't take any brake about this,
The black spot is even worst.

You don't need to listen what I'm saying,
But be sure I say it for Love.
It might sounds ridiculous about the spiritual,
But we already know that a discipline needs rules,
And rules of God are the best accomplishes of all things in life.

Lidia Aviles
July 28, 2008

Leer A Reason to believe en Escritos

Cuando decidas reestablecer la paz,
Ahí estaré,
Cuando decidas anunciar nuestro amor,
Ahí estaré.

Cuando decidas librar a mi tu corazón,
Ahí estaré.
Cuando decidas hacerme tu esposa,
Ahí estaré.

Cuando decidas que yo soy tu sueño,
Ahí estaré.
Cuando decidas amarme,
Ahí estaré.
Cuando decidas perdonarme,
Ahí estaré.
Cuando decidas recuperarme,
Ahí estaré.

Cuando todo esto empiece
En tu oscura habitación,
Cuando comience la ansiedad
En tu corazón,
Cuando el dolor se apodere de tu razón,
Cuando se desborde en melancolía,
Cuando te des cuenta que yo soy tu verdadera
y única mas que amiga.

Cuando llegue el día en que toques fondo,
Cuando grites al cielo y pidas por Piedad,
Cuando decidas amar a Dios sobre todo lo demás,
"No estaré ahí" -pero contigo estaré,
sabiendo desde hoy que ese día ha de llegar,
sabiendo y entendiendo que el Señor te ha escogido
y en su proceso,
eres para mi el elegido.

Cuando decidas comenzar de nuevo,
Cuando decidas el cálido sosiego,
Ahí estaré,
Aunque en el proceso,
En ese gran comienzo,
Me ausentaré,
Para que al verte sufrir no desfallezca mi fe;
Paciencia mi amor,
Ahí seremos Tú y Yo.

Lidia Aviles

Julio 31, 08

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El amor ha entrado en coma,
Esta agonizando la esperanza que
me mantiene viva esperando por ti.

En coma me arrebata la sonrisa,
Me oscurece la mirada,
Ese amor que anhelo está en coma,
Mi amor está por morir.

Mueren los mortales,
Mortal por ti,
El amor nunca deja de ser?
Lo he de creer!

Como es que ahora piensa partir?
Porque llora mi pasión dejándole morir?
Ay!!!! De mi, tengo tanto por decir!
Ay de mi! Cuando he de morir?

Arránquenme del marca pasos,
No fuercen a mi corazón,
No digan así ha de ser,
Déjenlo ser,
Ese ser que amo querer.

"Yo os Conjuro Doncellas de Jerusalen,
que no hagan despertar el amor,
hasta que quiera"

Y dije adiós tantas veces,
Y dije lo siento mil mas,
Aun así quisiera regresar,
Y sigo llorando sin parar.

"Donde esta mi amado?"

Agoniza mi alma en dolor,
De aquel amor perdido en rencor,
El orgullo nubló su mirar,
El amor pronto le ha de llegar.

"Y pregunte por el a todos en la ciudad,
pero ya se habia marchado y no lo encontre".

Legalmente ha de ser,
Acaso El Todopoderoso no ha de resucitar el amor que ha muerto?
Un minuto de silencio,
Lázaro! Lázaro, ven fuera!

Quien venció la muerte acaso no podrá?
Y Él me resucitará el amor que murió,
Porque si su hijo por mi consumó,
A mi el destino por él me favoreció.

"Eli Eli, lama sabactani"

Julio 3, 2008

Leer En Coma por Lidia Aviles en Escritos

Señor! -(Lord!)
Como pensar en que no lo volveré a ver? -(how to think I wont see him again?)
Quieres que muera de tristeza -(want me to die of sadness)
Por perderle? -(cause lost him?)
Acaso bajo tierra podrá amarme? -(will he love me under the ground?)

Acaso es muy tarde? -(Is it too late?)
Acaso tu no estas fuera de tiempo? -(Perhaps u r out of time?)
Lo que tu ordenes así se hará! -(What you comand it will be!)
consuela mi alma de este dolor insaciable! -(console my sould of this Insatiable pain!)
Confío en ti mas que en nada... -(I trust u more than nothing)
Pero Señor, porque me duele esta duda? -(But Lord, why this doubt hurts?)

Y mas claro no canta un gallo que este incircunciso
En rencor. -(and more clear cant be a Rooster than this proud sinner on rancor)
Para que cambiar el mundo si el que cambia deja al mundo -(what would we change the world, if those who change live the world)
por amor propio y a los demás. -(for love to them selves and the rest)

No puedo pensar en que le perdí, -(I cant think I lost him)
Aun sabiendo que vencí. -(even I know I won)
Salutación a la orfandad, -(hi to the Orphanhood)
Salutación a la oscuridad, -(hi to the dark)
Ave al ave. -(Hi to the bird)
Vuela lejos, -(fly away)
Vuela lejos, -(fly away)
Piérdete y regresa. -(get lost and come back)

Regresa antes de perderte. -(come back before you loose your self)
Te necesito como un corazón al palpitar. -(I need you as a heart needs a bite)
Donde quedo mi fervor carmesí? -(where did I live my carmesi fervor?)
Azul, azul..........-(blue, blue)

Señor! He derramado mi ultima lagrima por el. -(Lord, I cried the last tear for him)
Ahora... que la lluvia caiga por simpatía a mi dolor. -(now, let the rain to fall for shimpathy of my pain)
Este amor es lo que tuvo que ser. -(This love is what it had to be)
Has regresado where u belong, -(U came back...donde perteneces)
I tried to save u, -(Trate de salvarte)
But u didn't listen. -(pero no escuchaste)

How come my Lord!! How come! -(por que Señor!! Por que!!
I trust You Lord -(Confío en tí Señor)
,that's life, -(esta es la vida)
Cause you have given me more -(porque t me has dado mas)
In the future Sight. -(en mi porvenir)

Lidia Aviles
feb 2008

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I feel that I was out of my real life so long. But im here ....Im back.

God has listened my prayers and I feel more than secure about everything.
My awesome God is amazing!!!

I bet you (the reader) remember those times when you were a child that didn't think about relationships out of the nucleon family. Those days that your priorities were daddy, mommy, the school....games, playing, etc.

Im getting back on those days but with a mature perspective of living.

My worries for so long were That guy, this guy, the other guy, etc. Fridays nights, Saturdays nights, dressing, clubbing, chilling, flirting, ambitious jobs, good looking goals...
now In a mature kiddo perspective my worries aren't worries, just placer of serving the persons I love: God, my family, my friends, my self. My job isn't exactly a day pay job, I decided to own my own tinny world, a next futuristic optimistic empire with not ambitious greater than serve my Only Lord: Jesus.

I cant believe I used to buy 4 my self clothes every Thursday so I could go out with a brand new outfit just to flirt some asshole that Most of the time are single cause they don't know how to keep or establish a healthy relationship.

I used to think that I was lucky finding single hot looking have brain guys around...now that Im this new age guiding by real truth I can see I was maybe the last lucky in the world.
Now we don't exactly know if a guy single is single cause he is loyal to him self, or single cause he doesn't know him self enough to decide what he wants.

I remember I spoke with this guy once about "relationships" and he told me he wasn't ready to settle down... lol It was the 2nd guy saying the same b4 praying to God to get me back after that comment that they usually like saying.
And I remember we were having so many discussions about his behavior with some other "nobody" girl, so he got the trash out of his lips and said: "I don't have any girlfriend and im not married so I don't have to give any explications to nobody, Im single and I like being like that cuz I do what I want and I want everything I do" * Its hard to forget those words. I liked him saying that cuz for the very first time he showed him self what he was without lying. So I came out with a phrase "One self is loyal to the feeling not to the person" ... If the person doesn't feel...there is nothing to do.

"Being single is like being virgin, *only one time.* Cuz after that, you get divorced, separated, stolen, clowned, but not single anymore." Got to take care of it for a good reason, in which I consider my self enough honest to tell the guys that are always trying to get in my pants what they deserve.

Clear as the water. Let go the contamination and private your self of hurting someone that maybe loves you for good.

I came back as that baby that came to this earth 21 years ago on May 13 1987.

Hope all of u guys, get the real mss on this written and don't get confused by interpreting the wrong idea, as it usually happens.

Lidia Aviles

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Estados Unidos alcanzó un acuerdo con sus aliados de la OTAN para la construcción en Europa del Este de un radar del escudo antimisiles estadounidense.

Anque algunos luchen por ello, no se puede negar del nivel de Poder que alcanza el imperio Yankee cada vez mas.

tampoco podemos evitar que se comience a desarrollar una ultima guerra mundial que no tendra fin.

Lo cual Rusia se sigue oponiendo a esta noticia de "lanzaderas de misiles interceptores en Polonia y un sistema de radares en la República Checa"

Pero EEUU ha declarado que no es contra Rusia , sino para evitar cualquier ataque de parte Palestino.

bla bla bla... Lo que pasa, paso , sera. "siempre ha sido"  No se aflijan, no lloren, no se preocupen. No hay hoja q caiga que no sea Voluntad de Dios.

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-Dijo El Señor Jesus:  "el que lea entienda"

 Seria tan facil dedicar 15 minutos de mi existencia para explicarles que la politica actual esta remarcada en la biblia, quienes muchos la ven como asunto religioso en vez de ser lo que realmente es: "La Unica verdad dada a los hombres, la palabra de un Unico Dios que nos guia atravez de su Hijo Jesus".

Tambien podria darles unos textos biblicos que soporten esta base, pero la verdad es que Muchos hacen eso indicando barbaridades y blasfemias  de lo cual no quiero participar al salirse de contexto la explicacion en caso. La invitacion es mas que clara a leer la Biblia completamente no como una obra sino como la respuesta a la Vida.

"Gloria de Dios es encubrir un asunto;

pero honra del rey es escudriñarlo." Prov 25:2   ;) 

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If you knew the God's gift,

you were not hesitating to love him and to adore him.

Parce que tout a son prix,

Lequel cela est incomparable.

Une maison est-elle pleine d'une paix et une joie,

où tu trouvais une vérité plus qu'il est ?

Weil alles seinen  Preis hat,

Wenn das das Gottes- war,

Sie verstand Es alles,

Wissen wegen der Sachen

Vollständig, ernst glücklich!

No existieran los puntos  ni  las comas,

Ni los signos,

Ni los dedos,

Ni lenguas,

Ni idiomas!

Honesto desocupado na universo ,

Eles comprendiam em tanto como esta e aquelas.

Apenas asi ,

Tu és criança em esplendor ,

Tu és irmã de um lote de ,

Em frente ao artigos diversos.

Il teso lei ha arrivare ,

Il tromba esta in giro sonoro ,

Il portuale del paradiso estan in giro aperto ,

E il seol ascendere a riva.

Non is reluctor tamen , commodo ,

os EGO have diligo per amour timeless ,

simul reverto procul venue fraus per lux lucis ,

esta est E handsomeness quod os is donatus.

Этот быть грамматический определенный член время желанный для всюду mis отпрыск , Ты не надо недостаток может быть может быть знать кругом сегодня? Не сам она сопротивляться , Монета в десять центов eme водоносный слой.

ο οποίος. κοίτα εδώ.

Jiù zhèxie.

עכשיו שלווה (Shalom Ajshav)

Lidia Aviles.  Feb. 2008.

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There will be a day in which you will ask for a kiss

and you will get more,

There will be a day in which I will ask for a hug

and I will get more.

I will dream of you next to you,

as it happened before,

You will get so drunk of love!!!

I promise, is a healthy addiction!

Your only one!

I get so jealous of the people around you,

I get so jealous of the water you drink,

I wish to be that water,

I don't like machines...

So I guess you could be my gym. Lol

This was a happy birth day letter!!!

But as you see, I miss you so much.

I know I´ll have the honour of meeting you super parents!!

God bless your mom who gave you the life,

God bless your dad you was your guide.

Cause they formed the guy I love!

There will be the day I wont miss you as today,

But I will love you the most!

I´ll pray for all your dreams come true in this special day.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KITTY!!!

July 25th, 2007

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Porque escrito está,

Que es mas fácil hablar

y dañar,

Que callar

y edificar.

Y ojala te acordaras a tiempo

Del don de amarme,

Sé que no eres común,

Se que no me perderás

como ha pasado antes con otros,

tú no eres otro mas de esos perdedores,

tú eres un ganador,

no me perderás y a tiempo

estarás de regreso en mis brazos,

porque sé que te amo,

eres desde antes mi tierra prometida,

En Dios confiamos, dice tu moneda,

en Dios confío es la frase continua de mi corazón.

Troy, eres mi Canaán...

Porque la distancia representa la tierra

desierta que atribulan mis ojos el alma,

pero así reinan los reyes y los príncipes ganan batallas,

por fe, porque simplemente no te puedo ver,

pero te siento profundamente,

no hay pero que valga,

ni nadie que se imponga a quererte mas.

Dios me dará mi petición a su tiempo,

Prepáralo Señor,

Que te ame y te sirva,

Para que los dos seamos

una sola carne en Cristo.

Fortaleza pido hoy también,

Porque siento que muero

por no comunicarle mi amor.

31 Julio 2007

Lidia Avilés Ayala

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You are sleeping today,

Like a baby I can say,

I just got out of our bed,

We live for each other so safe,

I´m watching you sleep,

This moment is the best image

I´ve ever seen.

I´m in a corner of this bedroom,

Enjoying because you are my only temptation,

Smiling and looking at your warm silence,

Whispering....came out from your lips.

What are you dreaming?

Your arms didn't let me get out

From sheets,

I substituted my self with a pillow...

Im so in love!,

That I feed my self just by looking at you...

You hug it so tie...

Thinking is me, my self and I !

Im playing with your unique innocence,

This, that when you sleep,

Ask me for passion.

Your body and temperance

Are a miracle of God,

I live for those hands.

Even when you close your eyes,

Till being perfect,

I just don't get tired of looking at you,

You are like the moon on this night,

I haven't needed turn on the lights,

The truth...

You don't need it!,

So complete you are,

Luxury, movements,

Are you looking for my body?

You till sleeping...

Whispering...

You just said my name!!

Yes! you are dreaming of me!!!

You hug my substituted so tie!

Like a cat you move on bed!

You kissed again the pillow,

And you touch it...

And you love it...

You called by my name!..

Im so full of your own weather...

Your care got me out of control...

Click on my name again,

I have woken up!

It wasn't me who went out of bed,

It was you who really watched me...

Why are you smiling?

Your kisses woke me up,

I was hypnotized by your hugs.

-I love you too.

Lidia Avilés  

 2007  

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Un dulce mensaje inesperado llegó a mi buzón,

Esa tarea era casi diaria, esperando de otro el amor…

Llegaste por donde menos te esperaba,

Me jactaba de todo ese amor que mis admiradores presenciaban,

Y ahí te atreviste,

Le hablaste a esta extraña.

Con ausencia de interés te respondí,

Sin entusiasmo ví tu perfil,

Tus fotos tenían mucha digitalización,

Pensé.

Semejante a un modelo,

Quizá una simple caricatura,

Que sexy! Admití,

Guapo talvez,

Pero no presencié mas atención en mis sentidos.

Ahí pasó el tiempo,

De una manera tan rápida,

Te mostraste entusiasmado,

Desesperado….

El Messenger comenzó a ser un encuentro casual,

Habías a caso monitoreado mis enlaces?

Puede ser,

Lo quiero creer…

Ahí comenzó,

El romanticismo en la red,

De donde eres y hacia donde vas?

Cuantos idiomas hablas,

Y porque no mas?

Ahí estábamos,

Como dos ilusos frente a un monitor,

Gastando neuronas,

Presentando lo mejor de dos.

Si en las fotos te veías a mi parecer uno mas,

En video, no fuiste tampoco popular,

Pero si… había algo especial.

Tu carisma me sorprendió como nadie jamás.

De pronto era hora de verte cara a cara,

Pasaron los 3 meses que anhelábamos,

Ni en las conversaciones se me salía tu nombre,

Salir de la computadora era olvidarme de ti hasta ese día.

Y aquí llegaste,

Un 9 de junio de este el año perfecto 2007,

Sonó mi celular,

Y dijeron: Lidia?

Respondí: si, quién habla?

Expresaron: le comunico…

Ese fue el enlace a escuchar tu voz por primera vez!

Sin tanta habladuría quedamos en que llegaría por tí y tu amigo,

“necesitaban ayuda local” ;)

Llegué sin prisa,

Con cansancio acumulado de mas de 48 horas….

Sin muchas ganas de saber quien eras, ni para que…

Entré a recepción y pregunté por ti…

Dijeron que ya les avisaban…

Me Salí de ahí, y regresé a la calle,

Frente a mi carro…

Cuando llegaste!!!

Te presentaste como si eran años los que te acompañaban en conocerme!

Y ahí estaba yo,

Atónita! Aturdida! Disparatada!

Te juro, que mi diplomacia, evitó que se me saliera la baba!

Tu boleta de migración debe ser especial,

-nombre, -apellido,- ciudad natal, -residencia….planeta del que inmigra?

En alguno de mis sueños te mandé a hacer,

Es verdad; muchas veces oré por alguien como tú..

Pero por favor!

Jamás pensé,

Ni en la mas remota de la poca fé lo pensé.

Ni tanto lo tarada que me dejaste…

Toda la noche se cruzaron nuestras miradas,

De años parecían nuestras pláticas…

No sé si darte la mano,

O la mejía, o mis labios de una vez :S

Fuiste mi gracia toda la noche,

No en burla ni exageración,

Pero tu piel pareciera de cera,

Tus codos de algodón,

Tu cabello derivado del sol,

Tus brazos fuertes,

Tu mirada segura,

Perdida en la mía.

Que nos pasaba?

Acaso no era lo que anhelábamos?

Y brotaban las sonrisas solo de vernos,

Se acaloraron los rostros al sueño,

Esta vez no habían redes de por medio,

Ni teclados,

Ni cámaras web.

Esta vez era real…

Comenzaba una nueva vida para los dos.

Has reafirmado mi manera de pensar,

Has confirmado mi ideal,

Simplemente he encontrado mas que sanidad,

Nada mejor que el beso apasionado de un hombre completamente sobrio!

Mejor que esto no puede haber.

Ahí hablamos sin tanta emoción,

Pero con plena satisfacción,

Cuantos hijos? Y por que?

Estamos listos?

Pediste por voluntad conocer a mi familia,

Es la primera vez que presento mas que un amigo a mi padre,

Hiciste de nuestro corazón tu casa.

Mas que eso,

Eres el caballero ideal,

El hombre con el que suelo soñar,

El conquistador de reinos y potestades,

El sueño y señor de un solo corazón,

Porque entiendes a plenitud lo que realmente es el amor.

Amor diste a esta dama,

Dama perpleja dejaste,

Me dejaste viendo estrellas y cometas,

Mas que eso,

Literalmente me llevaste a la luna,

Y me abriste los ojos,

Para dejar de pensar en aquellos que no son ni la mitad de vos.

Y así comenzó la nueva era,

Te convertiste en mi futuro esposo,

Futuro padre de mis hijos,

Futuro abuelo de mis nietos,

Josh David es el nombre del primero,

Combinación de quien te dio la vida

y quien la compartió contigo antes que yo.

Tres hijos tendremos,

Es lo acordado,

Aun no sabemos donde nos casaremos,

Pero seguro está,

Que en el nombre de Dios

Feliz me has hecho,

Y conmigo morirás.

Acepto señor juez,

Acepto.

Le he amado desde antes de conocerle.

Me has amado dijiste!?

Eso escuché,

Sin una sola gota de alcohol en ese sano cuerpo,

No hay droga en su mente,

Completas las neuronas tiene!

Un hombre así Señor!

Un hombre así,

Estuve esperando desde hace mucho.

Por fin ha llegado.

“Del hombre son las disposiciones del corazón,

Mas de Jehová es la respuesta de la lengua” (prob. 16:1)

Escrito está: NUESTRO AMOR TRIUNFARÁ.

A su debido tiempo se consumará.

Seguimos en recelo,

Cartas inesperadas,

Del recuerdo de nuestro encuentro,

Sentimientos encontrados.

De donde sale todo esto?

El alma por fin se ha revelado!
la unión en nuestro cimiento ha llegado.

Magneto divino,

Gracias Dios, por este magnífico destino.

Lidia Avilés.  2 Julio, 2007

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U came back cause me,

U were my dream,

U were my porpose 2 live,

Now u r so ok,

Dont ever feel u lost me,

U wont ever loose this girl.

Im just out of ur hands now,

Im just behind ur shoulders.

Dont ever feel bad of not taking

What was made 4 u.

Keep enjoying life,

Just remember I was the one,

Dont ever cry,

Dont ever let ur soul died...

Dont worry... I´ll take care

Of ur heart from so far away feeling.

I´ll keep u in my prayers as always,

I´ll have u around...

U took my days,

U took my nights.

Judges will understand

U r so fine now,

Keep on the way,

Dont ever change,

Thanks 4 making me dream just by

Being the one.

Hard 2 understand how much I paid,

I think I didnt fight enough,

Maybe I wasnt true,

Maybe I was made just

4....bring u back...

didnt kno how u really were,

didnt kno how u really felt.

I saw this before,

But I also saw a bigger lie...

I dreamed of u with u 4 u,

Was so perfect 2 reach da dream 4 pieces.

But...u, with a new life wont need me,

Someone like me cant b 4 u.

Someone like u cant b 4 me.

Maybe my dream got so high thinking

Of u as a higer mind...

U r what u r,

That person who will b all my dreams.

I dindt care 2 suffer a while...

I took ur sadness,

I took ur rebounds!

Im so fine of having those things...

Now u r so better without,

Im so ok knowing u r 4 them.

Be that person I till love!

U changed my view,

u gave me the bigger price,

U paid very well.

U paid with life.

New again 2 live so free.

Thnks 4 being my kid´s father on my dreams,

Thnks 4 being da perfect man at my side,

Thnx 4 being such a nice dream.

Slavery is over 4 both...

U r free from her,

Im free from u..

Finally happiness is about ur tesis.

The man I love has a child- smile,

Da crazy lover wise smart...

This is my version of goodbye my lover!

He knows he deserves the world.

Da pasion on him dont ever rest,

Thats what he knows the best,

Freedom of life,

He understands better than one.

Delicioso, sabroso... just da perfect lover.

It wont stop!

My life just changed.

My eyes just cried,

My baby isnt mine,

A great future doesnt seem so perfect without u,

But at least I kno I won my faith,

And that´s more than ok.

There is my store,

There is my life,

Waiting 2 c what I´ve got.

Goodbye my lover,

Goodbye my friend.

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